slick shoes

time passes here as time tends to do.. i find myself in a constant state of eagerness for the next location and discontent for the current.. on a large scale i cant wait for Tanzania... india has been an interesting experience, but is a constant drain of energy just to exist here... a week or so ago i went to spend some time in a very small village in Nagpur called Jamthi and it was one of the first times i felt connected to this point... a little rural community of about a hundred families all just trying to get by, everyone very eager to talk and bs and goof around... there is a very real phoenomenon here of 'public gaze' which basically means people blatantly stare and scowl at anyone different ie white peoples.. its pretty uncomfortable and i constantly have the unfounded feeling of about to fight everyone but the girls on the trip have it much worse, straight up constant rape-eyes... but my village stay was very genuine and chill... im staying now in gandhi's ashram in Sewagram which is a pretty interesting experience, just because of the history.. ive seen monkeys running around everywhere and ive learned about the evils of globalization but thankfully i am resisting buying into the doctrine.. i miss the comforts of a boring home life alot, and its hard not to think about the time before i can just be lazy again and sit around and drink 40's.. its near impossible to relate to most of the youngsters on this trip but im getting by by just grinning and bearing it and reminding myself i doing all this for basically free and im doing it for myself to be in these places... overall everything is good.. india is just filthy everywhere.. im going to the desert of india for vacation Rajisthan next week whick will be a nice break to clear my shit up... i hope everyone is killin it at home, dont ferget bout me ill be back one of these days...